Over the past 2 years, since the onset of my injury and depression, I have slowly worked toward healing myself physically and mentally. I had to be very patient with the physical healing process, but every step running was the greatest medicine to, literally and figuratively, put me closer to healing and peace.
It took about 13 months to get back to the mileage I was at prior to my injury, but by that time I was deeply entrenched in depression, running was different and not alone enough to overcome the mental difficulties I was experiencing. Below is a list of what, combined with running, has helped me most.
Talk therapy – I am 41 years old and hadn’t experienced depression prior to this, so I had to identify somebody to work with. It is difficult to ask for recommendations, because of the stigma attached to mental illness. When I got the courage to call for help, it disappointing to realize that I could not get in to see the therapist for 1 month. It was worth it, though. I was lucky to find somebody great on my first try. I appreciated that she was kind, but firm, truthful and realistic. She gave me practical advice and concrete solutions to address issues. Not everything she suggested worked for me, but those that helped me are listed below.
Meditation – This is the only activity I have found that most closely mimics the effects of running for me. I was lucky to fall into Self-Compassion meditation. Beginning to treat myself as well as I treat others was an awakening for me, and very much needed. I have since started using the Insight Timer application on my phone to explore other types of meditation.
Medication – Although I did not feel like myself while on medication, it buffered me from crying and helped me sleep.
Acupuncture – I had a bad experience with my first acupuncturist, but the second acupuncturist, recommended to me by a trusted adviser, proved helpful to provide peace of mind, compassion and kindness that were helpful for healing.
Gratefulness – A gratefulness journal forced me to focus on the good things in my life, and provides a resource for comfort when I feel low.
Music – I created a playlist of songs that were uplifting and calming to listen to on my commute to work. A lot of the songs were selected to remind me of happy times in my life.
Uplifting media – Several series, like the Great British Baking Show and comedians on Netflix (Jen Kirkman is my favorite!), were uplifting and distracted me from feeling sad.
I am still working on getting my footing, but I am much improved. If you are experiencing symptoms of depression, please be brave and reach out for help. You are not alone.
Runner, Interrupted 